Well, the return to Stockholm turned out to be much shorter then I expected and hoped for. Last Friday was truely a “Friday the 13th” for me, as I was kicked of the project. It left me quite stunned I must say. The main reason was that I missed 2 project meetings. Unacceptable? Apparently. The first one I totally forgot about, the second one I missed because I didn’t have the impression it was so important, it was very late on the day and most of all… I wanted to go spinning… The weather in Stockholm had been beautiful all week, I missed the cycling after the week in France and just wanted to exercise really bad! Well, no excuse at all for missing a meeting. I realize that now.

Looking back at it all, I realize the problem is much bigger then just being kicked of a project. It’s not like me to miss meetings. Not like me at all. I seemed to have lost all passion for the work I do. Funny enough I talked about the same subject with some people earlier last week. That I was doing my work but mainly on routine and that was about it. Normally I like to push myself to put in extra effort and that combined with having lots of joy with the people I work with give me the extra satisfaction I need and want to find in a project. But this time around it was only the joy of being around the sweet people I worked with before… The main reason to return to the project was simply to be back in Stockholm… I guess that was the wrong reason from the start.

So the conclusion has been one that I probably should have drawn some time ago, but what happened on Friday just accelerated the whole process. The conclusion was simple. My IT days are over! :-) No more. The end of an era. Strange feeling comes with that for now, but I guess the decision is still so fresh I haven’t really realised it yet…

So the new question is: What’s next? Good question, but hard to answer just yet… I need to think a bit about this one. But as the way back is closed for good, it will only be a matter of time before I find an answer! Exciting stuff!!! It might be a new study, it might be something else… time will tell! :-)

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